The fight for my soul continues here in the studio.  During yesterday's session, although I struggled, the air was charged, and I felt on the verge of something. The notion of relinquishing any control is key here. Unless I stay true to what I am trying to do, all this time is for naught. I have to relinquish any control and stay true to what I am trying to do. I'd prefer it was a disaster than be something illustrative and boring. Removing everything from the room, even myself, and see where that gets me. If only it was that easy, or maybe it is?